Reinvention or Authentication?
Authentication (from Greek: Î±á½Î¸ÎµÎ½Ï„Î¹ÎºÏŒÏ‚ authentikos, "real, genuine," from Î±á½Î¸ÎÎ½Ï„Î·Ï‚ authentes, "author") is the act of confirming the truth of an attribute of a single piece of data (datum) or entity.
The other day I was chatting with a friend when she mentioned her next door neighbor knew my former husband via friends. My friend is also a yoga student of mine and knowing that affiliation her neighbor then said about me: "She's reinvented herself!"
I thought for some time about that statement finding it curious. I can see how most people would view my journey on the surface that way. Makes sense to me. It's a common mistake our visual eyes can make when we see someone willing to listen to their heart and not their head, family, society or "the norm" whatever that is.
Is it reinventing our self or stepping into our authentic Self? Finally living our Truth?
Before I knew what it was to "awaken" I definitely would have seen any one radically changing their life's path, friends, what they wear, what they eat, how they look etc as a mid-life crisis. And maybe it could be or are they transforming?
Is studying this studying that, the next workshop, teacher, and yoga lineage as a sign of searching for something or are they being guided to the next layer of their awakening?
When yoga found me, as I say, in my mid-30's it was truly meant to be. I stumbled on to a mat because I needed a good stretch as a fitness instructor I thought. I was so "tight" in many ways and struggling personally.
As I look back now I can see my soul was trying to find a way to the surface. Kicking, crying and screaming at me until I woke up and did something about it.
Once I stepped onto the mat it was like a magic carpet ride for me. Very fast. Speaking sanskrit (oddly familiar), teacher training, teaching, more studying, teachers, practicing different lineages, owning my first yoga studio, meditating, chanting.... on and on.
Once I held on to the "mat" so to speak, I couldn't let go. It was quickly transforming me whether I wanted to or not.
It felt so familiar, so right, so real, so happy, so fulfilled, so free, so joyous, so me. I'd come home. Yoga: union with our higher self; authentic self.